So I sat down last night to do my hair, lotion my legs and drink some wine. I ‘d just finished the bottle When Spears and 3 of his friends showed up. … I was glad they came, but then I felt like a lush. Then, about 3 Nic from walgreens showed up. I gave him a ride back to work and was headed back home (it’s like a 2 block trip. Lol) but then I got pulled over for speeding. Then another cop pulled over to join us. One of them was Jessie (who is pretty good friends with Will) he asked me if I was still with will – which I am clearly not . That set me off to crying. They didn’t give me a ticket. Today, I guess Jessie called will and told him that they were wanting to give me the sobriety test but Jessie told them to go easy on me. …. What a night.
It was another reason why I love will so much. Even when he’s not there to take care of me, he’s still watching out for me : )
I already know my own group of people, but then with will I have probably doubled my connections. I feel like this is bad: but I think it feels really good when people say “hey, you’re will’s girl… right?” Jessie for example – I think this is the fist time that I’ve actually seen him face to face and maybe even the first time Ive talked to him and yet he knew I was will’s. It’s a strange feeling when people know you before you even know who they are…. But I’m def not complaining.
So anyway. That personal night defently turned into something interesting.
I love hanging out with people, and I love how people know that they can just show up and I’ll hang. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to just spend the night by myself…. To just have that personal night and get be alone.
When I was a powerlifter I always said I NEVER wanted to be famous because people think they know all about you. There was once a time when a guy walked up and said “ hey you’re Brittany Moore” and I was like… yeah? And he proceded to tell me that “ I’m that girl that benches like 270”. When I corrected him with 235 he told me “no… you’re max is 270, that’s what the paper said” and then he wouldn’t believe me that I couldn’t lift much….. Everywhere I went I had to watch myself because I knew that someone there would know me. I got tired of having a name to protect.
I’m not really famous anymore since I quit lifting, but now it’s a different thing. Whats funny is that even though I’m not famous, I still run into people who know me ALL THE TIME! But it’s different now, when I was a lifter I would have random people in walmart talking to me for like 15 min before they would tell me that they met me in the paper. Now, if I walked up to someone in walmart and told them I was Beemo they’d be like “who?” “why do I care?” I like where I’m at now. I have connections. I have people to hang out with. I can get just about anything I would like. But without all the groupies. Without all the hard work of keeping up [with lifting]. Without having such a tight image.
… oh and when I say without the groupies, I don’t mean fans - I liked my fans and their support.
Ps. Ellen degenerous is officially my favorite show EVER….