Friday, November 30, 2007

wecome Mr. Sun.

The sun has finally come out again.
After this flood nothing will hurt again.

fog has began to cover my path,
but it is much better than the flood that just recided.

The sun is warming the snow on the ground.
I can already feel the melting snow and the fogs dispersing.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

I can live

I am going to live free.
I am going to fly.
i am going to find love.
I am going to eat ice cream with my friends.
I am going to drink wine and watch a good movie.
I am going to cry
I am going to laugh
You may not understand me.
I don't even understand myself.
That's just fine because i'm alive.
I don't mean that i am breathing and healthy.
I am alive.
I can feel pain and heartache
I can feel and i can dream.
I can make my own life.
You may approve but you probably don't.
That's just fine because i'm alive.
I can live.
I can go where i want.
I can smile to strangers
I can soar above the clouds.
I am going to live my life.
I am going to love
I am going to laugh
I am going to cry
I am going to hurt
I am going to live my life.

Friday, September 14, 2007

Who's heart will break?

I don't want to break his heart. I don't want to break your heart. I don't want to break my heart. Heartache is more painful than any physical hurt. In the end, there is no way to avoid it and in the beginning it is never expected.

Here and Now

Today's never happened before. Today will never happen again. I am here and i am now. I am going to live. I am going to get up and live. I'm going to live like today has never happened before. I am going to live like today will never happen again. I am going to live today because i have one chance at the here and now.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

let's fly above the clouds

Let's spread our wings and fly.
Let's spread our wings and soar.
I don't need a plane.
I don't need a kite.
I'm gonna spread my wings and fly.
Don't tell me that i can't
Don't tell me to stay at home.
I'm gonna spread my wings and soar.
Let's live our lives
let's love to laugh.
let's spread our wings and fly.
let's do what we want.
let's live our own lives
Let's spread our wings and soar.
I'm going to spread my wings and live.
i'm gonna fly in the sky.
I'm gonna soar above the clouds

Monday, September 10, 2007


There is no doubt in my mind; there will be no other like you.
I thank you for the passion you exuded, the confidence you gave me in that brief moment in time.

You left a mark
I wear it proudly on my chest
Above my heart Above my heart
To Remind me that I feel the best
When I'm with you When I'm with you
To me everything is effortless
You know its true
My eyes are painted with regret
and I don't need it.

♥ Tammy Pham.

accept my forgiveness.

I understand that we see things differently.
I am sorry that it has taken me so long to see this.
I was mad at you for being so closed minded and
i was mad at you for offending my friends.
I don't really care anymore.
I realize that i was also being close minded.
I have not come to see things your way.
I still refuse to conform to your ways.
But now i realize that its ok for you to be like that.
I can tell you that you are close minded, but i have to live with the fact that you don't want to change.
I can tell you that you are being judgmental, but i have to accept that you dont agree.
I can tell you that i disagree, but i have to respect you despite the fact that you will damn me for not agreeing.
It is all good.
I understand it now.
You will continue being frustrated with me.
You may continue doing everything just as you have.
I know that you have to gain experience some where
I know that i have to be open minded towards your ways
We have different ways of life and i have to understand that.
I am sorry it has taken me so long to realize this.
I am sorry that you don't understand me right now.
I know that you disagree with what i am saying now,
but that is ok.
You may not be able to accept the fact that i live differently than you,
but i am not going to be someone i am not.
I am not going to lie about what i do and don't do.
If you can't accept me as who i am than that is your problem.
I will be completely transparent with you.
I will be completely honest with you.
I hope you accept this.

chilvary isn't dead

Look for the girl with the broken smile..

Life is ok.

Hell happens, but life will go on.
Some people will dislike me.
Some people will not take a fancy to me.
That is all ok.
I don't need the perfect life.
I don't need the rest of the world to agree with me.
I don't even need the rest of the world to support me.
All i need is me.
I will walk through life and i will be ok.
I am gonna laugh and love.
I am gonna live life
i am going to breath fresh air.
I am going to eat ice cream.
I've got my friends.
I will have my shitty days but life will go on.
I'm going to look at God and he will smile because i love him.
That's all i really need.
I see This life that he gave me and i know that he loves me too.
Life is ok.
Life will run it's course so i am going to go with it and smile.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

forgiving Heartache

It's ok if you disagree with me.
I will forgive you if you hold it against me.
I will still love God if you judge me
You can tell me i am wrong and i am sorry.
I know that you are frustrated by my rebellion.
I am sorry that you can't understand me.
I promise you that i still love God and i think you know this.
I am sorry that it is so hard to see what i am saying,
I am sorry that i am so diverse that you don't even see me.
I hope life is good for you.
I will still be here and i will still sit by you on sunday.
Don't turn your back on me when it gets hard,
but i will forgive you if you do.

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Hey you.

Hey you!
yeah you, in the green shirt.
I fell in love with you yesterday
now i don't know how to live.
My mind is going on and my heart has been left behind.
Hey you!
You with the skateboard in hand
I wish you'd agree to be my man
Hey you!
I know you'll always be my friend,
but wount you help my heart to mend

I don't know how i got here,
but somehow, sometime, i fell in love with you.
now all i say is hey
hey you

Friday, September 07, 2007

This is the function

i'm gonna love and live
laugh and love
and live and laugh
i'm gonna walk in the rain and carry an unbrella on a sunny day
i'm gonna skateboard and i'm gonna smile at a stranger

Thursday, August 30, 2007

My art. My masterpiece.

I respect my body. I love my body. It has become my masterpiece. I have spent my entire life perfecting it and i will NOT soil it. I almost KNOW that he was trying to get me into bed and i’m not having it. Maybe he was only hoping to grope e, but i am not playing that game. My body is God’s and i will not soil it. No guy is going to see me naked or grope me or feel me up. I am going to my mirage bed a pure and innocent, un-soiled masterpiece. i have spent my entire life eating healthy and working out to keep my body georgeous. I want to be the perfect gift to my husband and to God. Sin is out side of our bodies, but sexual imorality is with in our bodies, with in God’s temple. I will NOT defile God’s temple simply to meet my own desires. If any guy thinks he is going to cross those lines or defile my body then he has thought WRONG. I will not allow any guy to soil this gift that i have worked so hard to presurve. My body is an art and a gift and i will keep it that way until the day that i say I DO.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

I am an Athlete.

"Being your best is not so much about overcoming the barriers other people place in front of you as it is about overcoming the barriers we place in front of ourselves. It has nothing to do with how many times you win or lose. It has no relation to where you finish in a race or whether you break world records. But it does have everything to do with having the vision to dream, the courage to recover from adversity and the determination never to be shifted from your goals." Kieren Perkins

"While I'm swimming, I sing songs in my mind." 
Alexandr Popov

"There is water in every lane, so it is OK." 
Ian Thorpe (on being in Lane 5 for a final).

In training everyone focuses on 90% physical and 10% mental, but in the races its 90% mental because there's very little that separates us physically at the elite level
- Elka Graham [AUS]

Powerlifting is 90% mental, the other half is physical.—Yogi Berra

If a man wants something he aint never had before, he has do something he never done before.

"Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game"
--a Cinderella story

It's not about getting a scholarship, getting drafted, or making Sports Center. It's a deep need in us that comes from the heart. We need to practice, play, to lift, to hustle, to sweat, to compete. We do it all for our teammates. We don't lift weights with a future Olympic wrestler; we lift with a future doctor. We don't run with a future Wimbledon champion; we run with a future CEO. It's a bigger part of us than our friends and family can understand. Sometimes we play for 200,000 fans, sometimes for 25. But we still play hard. You cheer for us because you know us. You know more than just our names. Like all of you, we are still students first. We don't sign autographs for money. But we do sign college applications, SAT exams, and student body petitions. When we miss a kick, or strike out, we don't let down an entire state. We only let down our teammates, coaches, and fans. But the hurt in our hearts is the same. We train hard. Lift, throw, run, kick, shoot, dribble, swim, and lift some more, and in the morning we go to class. Still the next day in class we are nothing more than students. It's about pride; in ourselves, in our school. It's about our love and passion for the game. And when it's all over; when we walk off that court or field for the last time, our hearts crumble. Those tears are real. But deep down inside, we are very proud of ourselves. We will forever be what few can call ourselves.. high school athletes.

Show me a guy whos afraid to look bad, and I'll show you a guy you can beat every time. 
-Lou Brock 

Dont look back. Something might be gaining on you. 
-Satchel Paige 

If at first you dont succeed, you are running about average. 
-M.H. Alderson 

When someone tells me the is only one way to do things, it always lights a fire under my butt. My instant reaction is, I'm gonna prove you wrong. 
-Picabo Street 

When you're riding, only the race in which you're riding is important. 
-Bill Shoemaker

Your opponent, in the end, is never really the player on the other side of the net, or the swimmer in the next lane, or the team on the other side of the field, or even the bar you must high-jump. Your opponent is yourself, your negative internal voices, your level of determination. 
--Grace Lichtenstein American Writer & Editor

Men forget everything; women remember everything. That's why men need instant replays in sports. They've already forgotten what happened. 
--Rita Rudner

If you can't accept losing, you can't win. 
--Vince Lombardi

Sports Do Not Build Character...They Reveal It 
--John Wooden

All right Mister, let me tell you what winning means you're willing to go longer, work harder, give more than anyone else. 
--Vince Lombardi

Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will. 
--Mahatma Gandhi

The spirit, the will to win, and the will to excel are the things that endure. These qualities are so much more important than the events that occur. 
--Vince Lombardi (1913-1970) US football coach

I was told over and over again that I would never be successful, that I was not going to be competitive and the technique was simply not going to work. All I could do was shrug and say 'We'll just have to see'. 
--Dick Fosbury won an Olympic gold medal at the 1968 Mexico City Games after he invented a revolutionary high-jump technique.

To me, boxing is like a ballet, except there's no music, no choreography and the dancers hit each other. 
--Jack Handy Deep Thoughts

The sports page records people's accomplishments; The front page nothing but their failures. 
--Jutice Earl Warren

One man can be a crucial ingredient on a team, but one man cannot make a team. 
--Kareem Abdul-Jabbar, NBA Center

We won! We won! We won! Um, unfortunately, I bet on the other team, so we won't be going for pizza. 
--Chief Clancy Wiggum (The Simpsons)

and scientists said that breaking the four-minute mile was impossible, that one would die in the attempt. Thus, when I got up from the track after collapsing at the finish line, I figured I was dead.
Roger Bannister (After becoming the first person to break the four-minute mile, 1952)

Champions aren't made in the gyms. Champions are made from something they have deep inside them -- a desire, a dream, a vision.
Muhammad Ali, American Boxer

My thoughts before a big race are usually pretty simple. I tell myself: Get out of the blocks, run your race, stay relaxed. If you run your race, you'll win... channel your energy. Focus.
Carl Lewis

I'm tired of hearing about money, money, money, money, money. I just want to play the game, drink Pepsi, wear Reebok.
Shaquille O'Neal

Whoever said, 'It's not whether you win or lose that counts,' probably lost.
Martina Navratilova, American Tennis Player

Champions keep playing until they get it right.
Billie Jean King

When I go out on the ice, I just think about my skating. I forget it is a competition.
Katarina Witt

I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.
Michael Jordan

I can tell you one thing. I've done this my way. I don't have anybody to blame for this win but me [and god], and I love it.
John Daly, American Golfer with my own instert.

For me, winning isn't something that happens suddenly on the field when the whistle blows and the crowds roar. Winning is something that builds physically and mentally every day that you train and every night that you dream.
Emmitt Smith, American Football Player

It took me seventeen years to get three thousand hits in baseball. I did it in one afternoon on the golf course.
Hank Aaron, American Baseball Player

When you lose a couple of times, it makes you realize how difficult it is to win.If you can react the same way to winning and losing, that's a big accomplishment... quality is important because it stays with you the rest of your life, and there's going to be a life after tennis that's a lot longer than your tennis life.
Chris Evert Lloyd

Wake up and smile.

"When the enemy throws your sins in your face and declares you deserve death and hell, you tell him, I admit I deserve death and hell, what of it? For I have a savior, his name is Jesus Christ son of God, who died on my behalf and made satisfaction. For where he is I shall be."

a joker is a little fool who is different from everyone else. he's not a club, diamond, heart, or spade. he's not an eight or a nine, a king or a jack. he is an outsider. he is placed in the same pack as the other cards, but he doesnt belong there. therefore, he can be removed without anybody missing him.

"…the lust for affluence in contemporary society is psychotic. It is psychotic because it has completely lost touch with reality. We crave things we neither need nor enjoy. We buy things we do not want to impress people we do not like. The modern hero is the poor boy who purposefully becomes rich rather than the rich boy who voluntarily becomes poor. Covetousness we call ambition. Hoarding we call prudence. Greed we call industry.” (simplicity) --Richard Foster

i highly recomend this, get in a wedding. I also recomend having babies. Preferably in the right order, but i do recomend getting in a wedding.
-Scot Joseph.

your dreams can’t come true until you wake up.

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment." - Siddhartha Gautama Buddha

"We cannot hold on to anything in this world, it is only once you let go that you can experience what is real." - Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon

"I believe all suffering is caused by ignorance. People inflict pain on others in the selfish pursuit of their happiness or satisfaction. Yet true happiness comes from a sense of peace and contentment, which in turn must be achieved through the cultivation of altruism, of love and compassion, and elimination of ignorance, selfishness, and greed." Dalai Lama

Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared." Gautama Siddharta

In the sky, there is no distinction of east and west; people create distinctions out of their own minds and then believe them to be true.

" park as close as you can. " - me, when we going to the school to run.

‘Be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best night and day to make you everybody else"
- E.E. Cummings

"Andy is an extreme sporter, he does just about all of it....he snowboards, skateboards, knitts....."
- Mandy

"Let it be..There will be an answer. Let it be". - the Beatles

"I get to go to lots of overseas places, like Canada." 
- Britney Spears, Pop Singer

"You guys line up alphabetically by height." 
- Bill Peterson, Florida State football coach

"Men, I want you just thinking of one word all season. One word and one word only: Super Bowl." 
- Bill Peterson, football coach

"Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."

"Keep smiling, it makes people wonder what you're up to."

The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

Be optimistic, all the people you hate are going to die eventually.

The key to individuality is to get rid of that " I'm afraid of looking stupid " line of thought..

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."
- Anon

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Walk beside me and be my friend."
- Albert Camus

"If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I would be at the bottom to catch them."
- Anon

"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."
- Anon

I opened-up a yogurt, underneath the lid it said, "Please try again." because they were having a contest that I was unaware of. I thought maybe I opened the yogurt wrong. ...Or maybe Yoplait was trying to inspire me... "Come on Mitchell, don't give up!" An inspirational message from your friends at Yoplait, fruit on the bottom, hope on top.--Mitch Hedberg

TP - "do you need a ride?"
ashley and i - " no, we are walking"

"L-Diddy doesn't need a sign. Everyone knows were L-Diddy sits." -Luke Moore

I WILL change the world.

"The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. stone crumbles. wood rots. people, well, they die. but things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on." Chuck Palahniuk

Anyone can give up. It's the EASIEST thing in the world to do. But, to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart...That's true strength.

"Not every dream can become a legend, but every legend has begun with a dream."-Erick Landrider

a ship in the harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for.

"To learn to succeed, you must first learn to fail."-Michael Jordan

“Whenever we dream out loud, we’re criticized for being foolish by people who really have no idea how special we are. As a result, we crush our dreams without giving them half a chance.”

“that’s impossible”. “well then let’s try the impossible because the possible is just not workin’ “

change: not merely to be different, nor to usher in a following, but rather to push towards unrealized possibilities which improve our environment, our community, and promote the best versions of ourselves.” – RYAN STROUD

them -“that’s impossible”.
me- “well then let’s do it ."

Everything is possible, it just takes longer to do the impossible.

Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway

Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The trouble-makers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status-quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify, or vilify them. But the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”

Thursday, July 19, 2007

The Tenuous Connection of Dreams

Scene IV

I believe I will look no farther.
Once when I was little,
my mother told me that if I find a man wth a fish in his pocket,
a key
in his ear, and
a violin under his foot,
I should marry him.
She said, with a fish in his pocket I'd never be hungry,
a key in his ear, I'd always have a place to stay,
and a violin under his foot, I would always have music and love
(they go together)

Yesterday I met a man with all three attributes.
He said he also had a stone
for a heart and what did my mother say about that?

But I had an answer,
without even thinking.
"A rock is one thing you can always be sure of."

But he took the fish out of his pocket
and threw it in the ocean,
took the key from his ear and gave it away,
and without even looking,
stepped on the violin,
crushing it,
as he walked away.
"Lady," he said,
"I'm in a hurry," and I remembered
my mother had always said,
"Honey, beware of a man in a hurry.
One thing a woman needs
is time."

Diane Wakoski

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

God's hands.

I love God, i love him with all of my heart.
I've given him my life as a sacrifice
now they come like wolves
They dress in my own clothes. They earned my trust and love.
Now they want more of me. What more they want, i do not know
I know that my entrie life has been devoted to sharing God's grace.
I know that i am sent to the unreachable nations
but those wolves still yearn for more.
They work to steal my support, my freinds, my life
They are humbly self-rightous. Now they try to mold me.
Don't they see what they're doing to themselves
They try so hard that they lose the entire universe.
God is love, God is grace.
He is one to be feared, but feared in love.
His own son't death has brought us life.
Now those wolves steal my love.
They hurt those who are unmoldable and those who do not know
They conform to their own ideas but i will conform to none but God.
It hurts even more to know that they too love God.
THey are blind to their own judgments.
They work to mold me and judge me when i do not conform
I love God, his judgment i love.
His hands, i will allow to mold and shape me.
Only his hands do i need.

why can't i love

Why can't i love?
It's not that i don't know how
It's not that the opportunity evades me.
I don't know what it is.
Maybe it's not what God wants
Maybe it's simply not time
I can not love
Even those i approve, those same who pursue me,
I can not love.
There is one, only one.
That one will never be.
He seems blind, but i know he is not.
That one i never see
That one is the same one that i watch
I watch as he tears his life apart.
I watch, and the more i watch the more i hurt.
That one, the only on i have ever loved.

Monday, May 07, 2007

You are..

Who are you?

who will you become?

what iwll you achieve?

Who will you love?

Is he coming?

Does he know that he has broke my heart?
Does he even have a clue?
I love him.
He's made mistakes - he knows that.
I don't think that he has even considered me as anything more than a friend.
If he had ripped my hear in two, i would at least know where we stood.
The way it is, i may never know.
The way it is, i don't even know what to do with what i have.
I want to help him,
but i don't know how.
I can't live it for him,
i can't stand over him,
and i can't love him unless he lets me.
In my own world i love him.
Is it possible that this is how it will always be?

If he is not the one,
who is?
Will i ever find that one who charishes my life more than his won?
Will he love me and put me first?
How long will it be until he comes into my life?
Will he be smart?
What kind of person will i come to join?
Maybe he'll never come.
I will live my life with passion.
I will go on to change the world single handedly.

but still i hope.

How long will i wait?
How long must i wait?
I can take the final heartbreak.
but he must be gone and
he must leave the pieces of my heart.

I have come to love him.
I am willing to give him my heart
But he will never accept, never has.
Now he is dissapearing.
He never broke my heart,
but what hurts most is
breaking your own.

Now still i wait.
I know he'll never come,
but still i hope.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

God is the love of my life

"When God closes one door, he usually opens a window"

How do you make God laugh? ...Make a plan."-Chet from Kicking and Screaming (1995)

"People put themselves in safe situations and think 'if God shows up - good; if not - than ok' but the only way you will see God and know it is him is when you put your neck out so far that you will be screwed if he doesn't show up - then you know you've seen him." - sandor.

"God loves us as we are. But He also loves us to much to leave as we are."

"A woman’s heart should be so close to the Lord that a man has to search after Him just to find her." And vice versa
"if i find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that i was made for another world."
-C.S. Lewis

"Disturb us Lord, when we are too well pleased with ourselves when are dreams have come true because we have dreamed too little, when we arrive safely because we have sailed too close to the shore.

Disturb us Lord, when with the abundance of things we posses, we have lost our thirst for the waters of life. Haven fallen in love with life we have ceased to dream of eternity; and in our efforts to build a new earth, we have allowed our vision of a new heaven to dim.

Disturb us Lord, to dare more boldly, to venture on wider seas where storms will shore your mastery, where loosing sighting of land we shall find the stars. We ask you to push back the horizons of our hopes and to push into the future in strength, courage, hope, and love."
-Sir Francis Drake

Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart, All you who hope in the Lord. Psalm 31:24

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Let's take on the world

"The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. stone crumbles. wood rots. people, well, they die. but things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on." Chuck Palahniuk

Anyone can give up. It's the EASIEST thing in the world to do. But, to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart...That's true strength.

"Not every dream can become a legend, but every legend has begun with a dream."-Erick Landrider

a ship in the harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for.

"To learn to succeed, you must first learn to fail."-Michael Jordan

"Whenever we dream out loud, we’re criticized for being foolish by people who really have no idea how special we are. As a result, we crush our dreams without giving them half a chance.”

“that’s impossible”. “well then let’s try the impossible because the possible is just not workin’ “

"change: not merely to be different, nor to usher in a following, but rather to push towards unrealized possibilities which improve our environment, our community, and promote the best versions of ourselves.” – RYAN STROUD

them -“that’s impossible”.
me- “well then let’s do it ."

Everything is possible, it just takes longer to do the impossible.

Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

social boundries

Every body has their aspirations and goals weather they be love or changing the world everybody has theirs. Often times poetry can be a window into the soul and sometimes that window can show their heart’s deepest desires. My deepest aspiration is to praise God. I love God; he has become the love of my life. I want every moment of my life to be for my God. I don't want to live an ordinary and expected life. I don't want to conform to what others expect of me. I don't want to live a safe or useless life. I want to do what others dream and dream of that which others believe undreamable. I want to go where others fear and fear what others expect. I want to take risks and live dreams. My deepest and strongest Goal is to be true to myself and help others learn who they really are.
Kids grow up being told that they can only be certain things. I want to do what others believe impossible. I don't want to be held in by what others tell me are attainable. In every society the people are told what is possible and impossible. In our society we are told how we should act and what we should wear and were we should go. We are looked down upon for being different and judged for being unique. We are expected to be simple and confirmative. Anyone who plays out his or her own style is judged as rebellious. Exotic colored hair is riotous, bright statement fashion is unruly, and new piercings are wayward. Why do we fear that which is different? why do we judge those who are individual? Why do we make assumptions on that which we don't know?
I want to go outside what is expected and set new boundaries. People have always made assumptions; even in Jesus’ life people were judging. Throughout his life he was judged as bad and as an outcast. People judged him for doing miracles; they judged him for doing that which was considered rebellious, such as talking with partiers and going against the set rules. In Angelou’s “Still I rise” she talks about those who don’t agree with her simply because she doesn’t conform and do things the way the world thinks she should. She doesn’t let those who judge her decide who she can and can’t be. She stays true to herself and takes pride in who she is.
God gave me the gift of life and I want to thank him by enjoying it and enjoying it for him. I want to take risks and put my own life on the line for him. I don't know if I will live long or die young, but I hope that I die for God. I want to out step boundaries that have been set and expectations that have been formed. I want to show others that people are different. I want to live my life so fully and so extremely that my testament for God will be just as extreme. I will give my life for God because I am thankful for the life that he has given me. I don't want to live an ordinary life; I don't want to live a simple life. I will be judged by the self-righteous and persecuted by the modern Pharisees. The religious will look me on as rebellious. I will not live a normal life; I will not be the same as those who judge me. I don't care. Who are they to make me feel unworthy? Who are they to label me? Who are they to say whether I look the right way to be loved by God? Only God can label me and only God can judge me. I will be who I am and I am a worshiper of God, the lord almighty. I don't need the approval of others because I am living my life for the God of Abraham and Isaac. I know that Jesus gave his life for me and it is because of that that I will continue living an extreme life. In “The Road Not Taken” by Robert Frost, he talks about taking the narrow road, the road that few go down. The path I have chosen in life is also narrow. I don’t care if I will be judged, I am going to stay true to myself and continue worshiping God even when the world judges me for it.
Every day we see so many people. I bet we see hundreds of people every day. And we judge every one of them. We judge the bum on the corner with his cardboard sign. We judge the rebel with his blue hair and facial piercings. We judge the altruistic business lady that we pass on the street with her high priced suite. We think the bum is worthless and the rebel is dangerous and the altruistic is snobby. We judge everyone we come into contact with. We think that we, and those like us, are the only ones who are good and safe. In “Seeker Of Truth” by E. E. Cummings, she says that the only path that she wants to be on no path except truth. I want to show people the truth in differences. Does anyone ever consider the other viewpoint? That man who lost everything trying to give hope to the homeless felt shamed when he saw the look of disgust from every passer buyer. The Artistic teen who spent his entire life savings to help under privileged kids in the inner-city learn to express their hurt and experience through art knew that every eye judged him in his differences. The hard working Professor who strived to teach every student what it means to think for themselves and make a difference in the world; She dreamt of this since she was a child even when others told her that her dreams were not achievable for her as a homeless child. Every day we pass hundreds of people. Every day we judge every one of them. Every day we miss judge the majority. We judge by what we see, we never think to look beyond what we can see. We never dream of the potential that people can have. We never think that the people we judge may be one that has made a difference or has attempted to change the world and possibly succeeded. We judge. Often times we tell those that are different that their dreams are useless. We tell them that their aspirations are foolish. We tell them that their life is pointless. Many times those strangers will listen. They will give up their possibilities because the world around them judged them wrong. Don’t let those who say it can’t be done interrupt you when you are doing it because often times the world around us does not know the difference between possible and impossible. Don’t refuse to attempt something just because it is impossible because often times the possible will not work either. You may fail, but how will you know what success feels like if that is all you experience and you never fail? You may fail, but you will never fly if you if you don’t first take a leap of faith. The world will always tell you that your dreams are foolish, but you can’t let that be your deciding factor because your ship will never get you out of the harbor if you don’t take hold of the wheel.
I don’t care what other people think of me. I want to be true to myself so that I can give God praise to the fullest. I want to step out side the boundaries even when I am being judged and persecuted for it. I love expression and I believe that these poets have done an excellent job of expressing their perseverance and the dreams that they have over come. Many people are judged and many people base their goals on judgments. Much like these poets, I will not let other people and their judgments detour me from my goals.

The Road Not Taken

• Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
• And sorry I could not travel both
• And be one traveler, long I stood
• And looked down one as far as I could
• To where it bent in the undergrowth;
• Then took the other, as just as fair,
• And having perhaps the better claim,
• Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
• Though as for that the passing there
• Had worn them really about the same,
• And both that morning equally lay
• In leaves no step had trodden black.
• Oh, I kept the first for another day!
• Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
• I doubted if I should ever come back.
• I shall be telling this with a sigh
• Somewhere ages and ages hence:
• Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
• I took the one less traveled by,
• And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost

Still I Rise

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.
-Maya Angelou

seeker Of Truth

seeker of truth

follow no path
all paths lead where

truth is here

-E. E. Cummings


In my youth i was opposed to school.
And now, again, Im opposed to work.
Above all it is health And righteousness that I hate the most.
Theres nothing so cruel to man As health and honesty. 
Of course Im opposed to the Japanese spirit 
And duty and human feeling make me vomit. 
Im against any government anywhere 
And show my bum to authors and artists circles.
When Im asked for what I was born,
Without scruple, Ill reply, To oppose.
When Im in the east I want to go to the west. 
I fasten my coat at the left, my shoes right and left. 
My hakama I wear back to front and I ride a horse facing its buttocks. What everyone else hates I like 
And my greatest hate of all is people feeling the same.
This I believe: to oppose Is the only fine thing in life. 
To oppose is to live.
To oppose is to get a grip on the very self. 

-Kaneko Mitsuharu 1895-1975 
Translated by Geoffrey Bownas and Anthony Thwaite

For the young who want to

Talent is what they say 
you have after the novel 
is published and favorably 
reviewed. Beforehand what 
you have is a tedious 
delusion, a hobby like knitting. 

Work is what you have done
after the play is produced
and the audience claps.
Before that friends keep asking
when you are planning to go
out and get a job. 

Genius is what they know you 
had after the third volume 
of remarkable poems. Earlier
they accuse you of withdrawing, 
ask why you don't have a baby, 
call you a bum. 

The reason people want M.F.A.'s, 
take workshops with fancy names 
when all you can really 
learn is a few techniques, 
typing instructions and some- 
body else's mannerisms 

is that every artist lacks 
a license to hang on the wall 
like your optician, your vet
proving you may be a clumsy sadist 
whose fillings fall into the stew 
but you're certified a dentist. 

The real writer is one
who really writes. Talent
is an invention like phlogiston
after the fact of fire.
Work is its own cure. You have to
like it better than being loved. 

-Marge Piercy

Expect Nothing

Expect nothing. Live frugally
On surprise.
become a stranger
To need of pity
Or, if compassion be freely
Given out Take only enough
Stop short of urge to plead
Then purge away the need. 

Wish for nothing larger
Than your own small heart
Or greater than a star;
Tame wild disappointment
With caress unmoved and cold
Make of it a parka For your soul. 

Discover the reason why
So tiny human midget
Exists at all
So scared unwise
But expect nothing.
Live frugally
On surprise.

- Alice Walker

For the One Man Who Likes My Thighs

There was the expensive cream from France 

that promised the dimples would vanish 

if applied nightly to the problem spots. 

Then, when that didn't work, Kiko, the masseuse 

at Profile Health Spa, dug her thumbs 

deep into my flesh as she explained 

in quasi-scientific terms that her rough hands 

could break up the toughest globules of cellulite. 

I screamed, then bruised over, but nothing 

else happened. When they healed, my legs still looked 

like tapioca pudding. There was the rolling pin method 

I tried as far back as seventh grade, 

kneading my lumpy legs as though I was making bread. 

Cottage Cheese Knees, Thunder Thighs -- 

I heard it all -- under the guise of teasing, 

under the leaky umbrella mistaken for affection. 

I learned to choose long dresses 

and dark woolen tights, clam diggers instead of short-shorts, 

and, when I could get away with it, skirted bathing suits. 

The nutritionist said that maybe Royal Jelly tablets 

would break up the fat. I drank eight glasses 

of water everyday for a month. I ate nothing 

but steak for a week. I had to take everyone's advice, 

fearing that if I didn't, my thighs 

would truly be all my own fault. Liposuction 

cost too much. The foil sweat-it-out 

shorts advertised in the back of Redbook 

didn't work. Swimming, walking in place, leg lifts. 

It's embarrassing, especially being a feminist. 

I wondered if Andrea Dworkin had stopped worrying, 

and how. If Gloria Steinem does aerobics,
claiming it's just for her own enjoyment. 

Then I read in a self-help book: 

if you learn to appreciate your thighs, they'll appreciate 

you back. Though it wasn't romance at first sight,
I did try to thank my legs for carrying me up nine flights 

the day when the elevator at work was out; 

for their quick sprint that propelled me 

through the closing doors of the subway 

so that I wouldn't be late for a movie; 

for supporting my nieces who straddled, one 

on each thigh, their heads burrowing deep into my lap. 

I think, in fact, that it was at that moment 

of being an aunt I forgot for an instant 

about my thigh dilemma and began, more fully,

as they say, enjoying my life. So when it happened later 

that I fell in love, and as a bonus, 

the man said he liked my thighs, I shouldn't have been 

so thoroughly surprised. At first I was sure I'd misheard -- 

that he liked my eyes, that he had heard someone else sigh, 

or that maybe he was having a craving for french fries. 

And it wasn't very easy to nonchalantly say oh, thanks 

after I'd made him repeat. I kept asking 

if he was sure, then waiting for a punch 

line of some mean-spirited thigh-related joke. 

I ran my fingers over his calf, brown and firm, 

with beautiful muscles waving down the back. 

It made no sense the way love makes no sense. 

Then it made all the sense in the world. 

Denise Duhamel

Saturday, April 14, 2007

love within God's love

Believe it and Be Satisfied
Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone,
To have a deep soul relationship with another,
To be loved thoroughly and exclusively.
But God, to a Christian, says,
"No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content
With being loved by Me alone,
With giving yourself totally and reservedly to Me,
With having an intensely personal and unique relationship
With Me alone.
Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,
Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship
That I have planned for you.
You will never be united with another until you are united
With Me alone,
Exclusive of anyone or anything else,
Exclusive of any other desires or longings.
I want you to stop planning,
Stop wishing,
And allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing,
One that you cannot imagine.
Please allow Me to bring it to you.
You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things.
Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I Am.
Keep listening and learning the things I tell you.
You just wait.
That's all.
Don't be anxious.
Don't worry.
Don't look at the things you think you want;
You just keep looking off and away up to Me,
Or you'll miss what I want to show you.
And then when you are ready,
I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any
You could dream of.
You see, until you are ready and until
The one I have for you is ready
(I am working even at this moment to have you both ready at the same time),
Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me
And the life I prepared for you,
You won't be able to experience the love that
Exemplified your relationship with Me.
And this is the perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love,
I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your
Relationship with Me,
And to enjoy materially and concretely
The everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love
That I offer you with Myself.
Know that I love utterly.
I Am God.
Believe it and be satisfied.

*i found this on a friend's page


How do you explain emotions, feelings?
I barely know what I myself am feeling.
I know that I care for him more than anything in this world.
I want to know him more.
I want to know his problems.
I tell him it will turn out just fine.
I yearn to answer all his questions.
I yearn to give him love and fix his predicaments.
I want to show him my feelings but I know that I must wait.
I must wait for God and I must wait for him.
I want so badly to go to him, show him my affection.
I know that I cannot.
I cannot tell him how I feel.
I do not know everything about him.
I do not know all of his problems.
I do not know all of his questions.
I cannot give him all of my love or fix every problem.
I must wait.
I must wait for his love.
I must wait for God.
He has almost become my best friend.
He is the one I think of.
He is the one that makes me smile.
He is the one that listens to me.
He has his focus on the one thing in life that matters – God.
He has passion for the almighty.
I do not know what will come.
I do not know if I am hearing God clearly now.
I do not know if my heart will break.
That is a chance I am must take.
I wait.
I wait for God.
I wait for him.
I wait for his love.
I wait.

The perfect man.

Where is he? Where is my love?
I know love hurts, I can deal with that if it means that I will be with him.
I care for him so much and yet he still does not know.
I want to tell him, but he is the one that scares me.
I am so comfortable with what I know, and scared of what I don’t know.
I don’t know what will happen and that scares me.
I have waited for him and now I am ready.
How long will must I wait, how long will I wait?
I care for him so much and I yearn to show him.
I want him to love me in the way that I love him.
Will he ever love me? Is it possible. Is love between us possible?
The perfect man is what I yearn for, I know that is who God will bring me to.
Is he the perfect man? Or is my waiting worthless?
When is it time to move on? How long must I yearn before I give up?
I care for him so much. Does he even have the slightest clue?
I am ready. I wait. I yearn.
I will continue loving him because I care for him too much to give up.

Waiting to love that man.

I know that I like that man.
Could it be love that I have?
What is love? Who am I to say what is or not?
He is my best friend, the one I run to and support.
I could live and die for this man
I think of him as much as anyone.
I enjoy his company. I want his accompaniment.
His focus is the same as mine, our God is one and same.
I could not out step my boundries
I could make no move
I wait on God, my lord; I wait to be a gift.
I want to be his gift, a gift to him from God.
I have waited and I have prayed and now my time is ready.
I am waiting and wait. I want to love this man.
I know that my role is not come and I must wait again.
I want to love this man, but I know that I must wait.
How long must I wait? I wait to love this man.
I wait to be his gift.

Wednesday, April 04, 2007


Omnipotent. all powerfull. You are my savior who has given me life.
I love you and worship you. Humbly I bow at your feet to give you the praise you deserve.
My savior. My lord. And the love of my life you are.
When I am weak you are my strength; when I am alone you are my friend. you are the rock that I will live my life apon.
You are my love, you are my friend. You are the one I will live my life around.
God, you’ve given me life, you’ve given me hope, you show me love that not one could express.
I will give you my crowns, I will give you my love, I will give you my life that you first gave me.
How can I express how much you deserve
You deserve so much more than any could give.
My love is too weak, my world is too small, and my life is too broken to fill your worth.
Omnipotent, all powerful. Lord with my love I give you my crowns and fall at your feet.