Monday, May 31, 2010

Barefoot Moscato

So I’ve become a HUGE fan of wine.
My most recently opened bottle is barefoot’s Moscato.
The thing with any wine is that two brands of the same wine will be two TOTALLY different wines. 
Moscatos have become a new fad.  The African American community has especially began to pick up on it (at least here in Carbondale)  Sutter home is the Brand that people really know – I think a lot of people don’t even realize that there are other brands that make moscato. Lol.   The sutter home Moscato is a very mellow, sweet wine.  Barefoot has a little bit of a bubbly to it.  Not as bubbly as champaign or even reunite’s lambruso, but defently just a hint of bubbly – when the glass is empty you can see the hint.  Though, it might just be the sweat from the heat..  It’s also a bit sweeter than sutter home.  A lot of moscato’s are super super smooth.  Barefoot, it’s not as smooth as most, but as different as it is, it still taste strongly of moscato.  While we’re on the the moscato topic – I had one the other day, A-MANO, that I consider AMAZING.  It only barely resembled that common moscato taste.  But it tasted a lot more like real wine.   It was still sweet, but it had more of the barrel taste that people relate to wine.  The thing with wine that most non-wine drinkers don’t realize is that it’s not all toasty.  Most people start with a Chardnay and then think that all wine is that dry.  Moscato is popular among “non wine drinkers” because a lot of cheap brands make it and it’s sweet.  While A-MANO is more of a real wine (not infused with Gallons of sugar)  and Sutter home will probably stay more popular than barefoot (because it’s much smoother and less sugary tasting)  Barefoot will defently be non-wine-drinker approved. 

Ps.  Is it bad if I pour my first glass at 10:39 ….. AM   : )  

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22 and skipping town

It’s memorial day.  This is evening is gonna be a busy one for me.  LoCash is playing at 5 so hopefully I’ll get to hang out with Ryan Jones before they play.  I have to work at 5 so I wont get to hear them..  After work it’s Ryan Jacob’s Birthday and I told him I’d stop by. 

Two weeks and I turn 22.  After that, I think I might skip town and start looking for a job in FL.  I was thinking about spending July looking for a job and then coming back for my stuff when I find one… but 325 (my rent) is pretty high storage… but I guess then I don’t have to move my stuff an extra time.  My other option is to wait til my lease is up and then go to Fl and just put my stuff here in a storage bin which I hear is less than 100 a month.    I guess, if I’m leaving in 2 weeks I should start thinking about boxing up my stuff.  * sniff sniff *.  Sad face.    It’s getting about that time that I have to make a real decision.  I think I almost want to move to Texas, but I don’t know anyone there…. If I do that I’ll have to take a tent and camp out.  So I guess I’, gonna stick with FL for now.  The other thing is:  no one thinks I’m actually serious.  Everyone keeps saying “I don’t think you’ll actually end up going to FL.”  Will says “I think you’ll probably end up staying around here, just not with me”  … I’m the kind of person that comes up with crazy and random plans and then I end up actually doing it.  That is what I want to do.  …. I actually want to carry through with what I say. 

Now I just have to figure out what I’m gonna do when I get down there… Hot stew and doug have both said I could sleep on their couch.   I might just utilize both options : ) I don’t have any idea what I’m gonna do…. But I do know that I am TERRIFIED. 
So on that note.  I’m peacing out.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

another year.

16 is driving
18 you’re an adult
19 you get into bars
20 you’re not a teenager
21 you can drink

and cerrin reminded me yesterday that my 22 birthday is coming up…. I’d almost forgotten.  It’s my first birthday without a point. 
2.5 weeks and I’ll be 22.  It’s time for me to grow up. 

sex in the city 2

Sex in the city. Turned out ok.  It’s not my favorite movie, but it is defently still very cute.    It makes me want to wear crazy clothes and have sex.

So sex in the city = awesome yes.

As for being adventurous…. Epic yes. 
I’m ready to get outta of here and live. 

and now - off to make some awesome crazy outfit.  Here comes the girl in me.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

sex in the city

Night before last I hung with a dude from HS. . .
Last night, Jaci and I went to pinch, then we hung with a friend of a friend and two of his buddies.

Oh man. Oh man. 

Tonight Jacqui and I are going to sex in the city 2 and I am dressed to impress.  . . I’ve hung with her quite a bit lately and I love it.  She is defently pretty close to my best friend right now. 

Speaking of best friends.
I love how I have several best friends and they all have different titles:
Facebook wife: hoops.
Bto the ifenity F:  cerrin
Bestie:  Jacqui.

There are 4 of us.  Just like in the movie I’m about to watch. 

Speaking of…. My own movie wouldn’t be complete without a couple boys to thicken the plot..
That’s where Will comes in.  I love him, but I can’t do that to myself.  I have had three proposals called off, I couldn’t survive it again, little lone being left at the altar. 
Then there are all the guys that try to date me or try to woe me….. I don’t understand why, but they do and what they don’t realize is that I am un woeable.  In fact, I am so guarded that I would play any guy over before I would allow my emotions to make a decision for me and before I would let myself consider getting hurt again.  And that is final.
It’s just like they say in the movie:  I’ve been in a relationship with myself for 22 years, it’s about time I start consearning my self a little more with that relationship.

So welcome to the movie of my life.
Lovehearts and duh

Monday, May 24, 2010

The oil spill.

 During an interview with the man in charge of the oil spill someone asked him “you guys made more the 3.4 billion in the start of the year, why didn’t you guys sit down and say ‘we are doing something really risky, why don’t we come up with a back up plan if something goes wrong?’”  and he said “we did, we came up with what we thought was a fail proof piece of equipment” … How dumb can people be?  That was EXACTLY what they said of titanic.    Why would you EVER say something like that after the titanic…. But then he goes on to dig an even bigger hole by saying that this is not a cotasrophy, he says this oil is just like dish soap and it will fix it’s self…. Our shores are covered in oil, oil that does not dissolve – how could he think that!? 
…. Just like our government, this guy is retarded.   And here people don’t know how our country is falling apart.  Lol.  I get it.  . . . ppl will disagree with me, but I think I get it. 

on life.

Rootbeer float.
Do you drink the rootbeer or eat the ice cream first?

“I’m gonna eat the first rose and then it’ll be part of my soul and I’ll have it forever and then no one else can get it”

They are now saying that lower sugar intakes will help lower blood preasure.  I say duh.   People who are overweight have always had higher blood preasure.  That’s always been kind of obvious. Lol.  I’m glad the big time doctors are seeing this now. 

They are always portrayed as beautiful and mysterious :  have you ever seen a fat vampire?  No, they’re always ripped and hott.

They don’t know how to fix their budget inbalance but they are wasting money on pointless traffic stops and ignoring the crime ridden parts of town and fixing roads that work just fine and wasting time arguing laws that don’t matter and ignoring the places that actually need the money.  … whats wrong with this picture?
IL can’t pay SIU the money they owe but the school is building a new football field and the government is going to pay for new fire alarms when the ones there work just fine, even if they are a little old.   

The girl in me.

I’ve stepped outside of my normal habbits – tonight, I’m watching the bachelorette.   It makes me want to fall in love….. or at least something like that.  I’m excited to move somewhere big and busy.  I’m ready to experience something new.  I might be terrified of the unknown, but I’m ready for the addrienaline that comes with it. 

Sunday, May 23, 2010


Seatbelts?  BS?   What? Seat belts and the people that say I have to wear a belt….
Last night, sat,  I went to bartend at a town-ie pub in Johnston city.  There was a lot of drama for such a small bar and the night ended with the parking lot swarming with police.  I’d had several drinks and so I decided to be a responsible adult and left my bike there and hitched a ride with CE.  Unfortunatly I would regret that decision.  As we got closer to Carbondale we came across a traffic stop. I ended up getting a seat belt ticket.  …..  Too bad I wasn’t on my bike that doesn’t have a belt.  
CE admitted to drinking while we were at work and so they had her take the sobriety test. While drunk she still passed it.   The ignorance that these cops support (giving me a seat belt ticket is riddiculus) was the same ignorance that managed to miss that fact that CE isn’t even 21.  
I have never been so infuriated.  Who do they think they are to tell me that I have to wear a seat belt…  I am an adult and I am not hurting anybody by not wearing one (even myself.)  …. And how do they expect me to wear a belt when I ALWAYS ride a bike where I don’t have to have one.  Next they’re going to tell me that I can’t drive cars that are painted red or trucks that are painted blue or a bike unless I’m a male 26 yrs old and 5’9’’ and between 185 and 298 pounds. .. .   Why don’t they tell me how to cut my hair while they’re at it or what color my belt has to be….. Come on people!  I was a responsible adult and decided not  to ride and how do I get repaid?  By getting a ticket.  I think this is riddiculus – what makes me even more upset is the fact that there is nothing I can do about it.   I spent 8 hours working and now I’m spending the majority of that money on a seat belt ticket….. and what happened to reason?  I thought they weren’t supposed to pull people over without reason – they pulled us over without any.  I can’t believe the audacity of our government and I can’t believe that no one is doing anything about it.   It embarrasses me to call myself an American, maybe I’ll skip on FL and move to Australia.
My state rep is Mike Bost….. But I have been informed that he’s not really in charge of the seatbelt laws… but that if I want to vent that he is the one for me to call.  I don’t just want to vent.  I want the people that passed seat belt law to know that they are dumb and deserved to be punched in the face.  I really wouldn’t mind be the one to do it. 

I suppose maybe it’s sec. of state, Jessie white, that is actually pushing the laws.   I will be sure to vote this next election…. And for ANYONE as long as it is NOT him.    In fact, you had better hope that I don’t ever meet him cause I will be sure to share a piece of my mind with him. 
 - - after some researching I found out that this is his last term.  THANK GOD! 

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Love tight.

While you SCREAM at your woman, there's a man wishing he could whisper softly in her ear... While you HUMILIATE, OFFEND and INSULT her, there's a man flirting with her and reminding herhow wonderful she is. While you HURT your woman, there's a man wishing he could make love to her. While you make your woman CRY there's a manstealing smiles from her..

personal night.

So I sat down last night to do my hair, lotion my legs and drink some wine.   I ‘d just finished the bottle When Spears and 3 of his friends showed up.    …   I was glad they came, but then I felt like a lush.   Then, about 3 Nic from walgreens showed up.  I gave him a ride back to work and was headed back home (it’s like a 2 block trip. Lol)  but then I got pulled over for speeding.  Then another cop pulled over to join us.  One of them was Jessie (who is pretty good friends with Will)  he asked me if I was still with will – which I am clearly not .  That set me off to crying.   They didn’t give me a ticket.  Today, I guess Jessie called will and told him that they were wanting to give me the sobriety test but Jessie told them to go easy on me.  ….   What a night.
It was another reason why I love will so much.  Even when he’s not there to take care of me, he’s still watching out for me : )
I already know my own group of people, but then with will I have probably doubled my connections.  I feel like this is bad:  but I think it feels really good when people say “hey, you’re will’s girl… right?”  Jessie for example – I think this is the fist time that I’ve actually seen him face to face and maybe even the first time Ive talked to him and yet he knew I was will’s.   It’s a strange feeling when people know you before you even know who they are….  But I’m def not complaining. 

So anyway.   That personal night defently turned into something interesting.  
I love hanging out with people, and I love how people know that they can just show up and I’ll hang.   Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to just spend the night by myself…. To just have that personal night and get be alone. 

When I was a powerlifter I always said I NEVER wanted to be famous because people think they know all about you.  There was once a time when a guy walked up and said “ hey you’re Brittany Moore” and I was like… yeah? And he proceded to tell me that “ I’m that girl that benches like 270”.  When I corrected him with 235 he told me “no… you’re max is 270, that’s what the paper said”  and then he wouldn’t believe me that I couldn’t lift much….. Everywhere I went I had to watch myself because I knew that someone there would know me.   I got tired of having a name to protect. 

I’m not really famous anymore since I quit lifting, but now it’s a different thing.  Whats funny is that even though I’m not famous, I still run into people who know me ALL THE TIME!  But it’s different now,   when I was a lifter I would have random people in walmart talking to me for like 15 min before they would tell me that they met me in the paper.  Now, if I walked up to someone in walmart and told them I was Beemo they’d be like “who?” “why do I care?”  I like where I’m at now.  I have connections.  I have people to hang out with.  I can get just about anything I would like.   But without all the groupies.   Without all the hard work of keeping up [with lifting].  Without having such a tight image. 
… oh and when I say without the groupies, I don’t mean fans -  I liked my fans and their support. 

Ps.  Ellen degenerous is officially my favorite show EVER….

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Pulling out the coozy

It’s muggy outside, about 85 degrees.  I went riding today, I wore shorts and a tank top.  Now, the sun has gone down and jeans are perfect, no jacket.  It’s right at that time when some people start to say that it’s getting hot.   I say it’s finally getting perfect.  I like pants, but I can now wear shorts and still not be even slightly chilly.  The breeze is welcomed instead of feared (like it is in the winter) and the sun actually feels welcoming instead of like a lifesaver. .  I want to go puddle jumping and frolicking.  I pulled a beer out of the fridge this evening and realized that I actually NEEDED a coozy to keep my beer cool  : )   it made me smile.   I love summertime and strawberry wine. 

Friday, May 07, 2010

if only i could rest easy.

well hell.   If the fight is over than i guess i should stop crying my self to sleep

Thursday, May 06, 2010

captured again.

I was made for more than this.   I’ve always known I was.   I feel trapped.   Like a cage lion.   I am read to fly.  Ready to be more than just another person.  I don’t have much to offer, but what I do have to offer is the world…. I was made to be something in this world, but right now I just feel like a leaf in the wind…. Except trapped in a world of plastic – seeing the outside but being unable to escape and be part of the other world.

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

History class

I refuse to live regrets – I learn from the things I shouldn’t have done.   But I look back on the past year and I realize that I’ve become someone I don’t want to be.  It’s done now and I refuse to look back.  But I know that I’ve crossed the line of experiemental and Christian.  Now I’ve come to the point that I have to sink or swim.   I have to find my place in life. 
I have to stop going to steak n shake and I have to find stability in my life.   I want to be someone that people look up to and right now I am not being that person.  I’ve got to get back to who I am and who I want to be.
I love life, but with sin comes burdens and ache.  Lately, I haven’t been loving life very much.   Sure, now I know how the average joe lives.  Sure, now I can say ive lived as someone else.  But I don’t like it.   I don’t like any of it.   I miss the days where I had friends and we would just sit around and do nothing.   I miss the days where I could randomly go skateboardin or swimming.  I miss the days where I really knew the people I hung out with. 
I’m ready to get back to life and loving living. 

Cinco de mayo

Well.   I think I still want to marry will.  But I CAN NOT do this to myself.  I can’t allow myself to fall inlove with him again.  I can’t bear another break off and I can’t allow myself to marry someone who will never be decisive.  My parents keep asking me if I really want to marry someone who will not follow through on the things they say.  And not only that – I can NOT get the image of him yelling at me from across the street out of my head.

I think it might be the idea of being married that is more appealing than being married to him … . I want to be taken care of and charrished.  I want to know that I have a loving husband to come home to and take care of.    But It’s not worth being hurt again.    So I’ve got 2 months and I’m off to the big city.   I can’t wait to see another life.

Monday, May 03, 2010

going public

This is normally a blog i would post somewhere other than here, but then i, for some reason, ended up posting here anyway....
So Will Stephens bought me an ice cream maker yesterday… I wish he would stop buying me stuff because that’s not what I need right now.  I’ know that he’s not trying to buy me over, but that’s what I’m starting to feel like….   If he wants to win me over he needs to do something a little more extreme than just buy me stuff and tell me he wants to marry me.  I need him to do something serious that proves he can commit to something….     But I know that he will never do anything  that is major enough to win me over.   I love will Stephens, but this isn’t how relationships are supposed to work. 

And now I’ve got an ice cream maker that I don’t want and a  500 dollar ring that I don’t know what to do with.  

I wish he would just make things easy for me.