I refuse to live regrets – I learn from the things I shouldn’t have done. But I look back on the past year and I realize that I’ve become someone I don’t want to be. It’s done now and I refuse to look back. But I know that I’ve crossed the line of experiemental and Christian. Now I’ve come to the point that I have to sink or swim. I have to find my place in life.
I have to stop going to steak n shake and I have to find stability in my life. I want to be someone that people look up to and right now I am not being that person. I’ve got to get back to who I am and who I want to be.
I love life, but with sin comes burdens and ache. Lately, I haven’t been loving life very much. Sure, now I know how the average joe lives. Sure, now I can say ive lived as someone else. But I don’t like it. I don’t like any of it. I miss the days where I had friends and we would just sit around and do nothing. I miss the days where I could randomly go skateboardin or swimming. I miss the days where I really knew the people I hung out with.
I’m ready to get back to life and loving living.