The world has stopped spinning

or at least it feels like it.  I have some friends that i see every day and some that i dont see very often at all but sometimes the later of those two are even better than the ones i see the most......   Right now, i feel like the entire world should know what has happened this morning.  How can anyone go on about their day like nothing has happened?  When a friend is lost, it feels like the world has lost the most important thing... the thing that makes it go around.  and the pain is an emptyness more than anything.  It's not like saying goodbye and It's different than heartbreak.  All of the memories are still there and always will be, but there is a part of those memories that is ripped out along with the friend that helped make them

I guess some people live life as a dead man, but at least our friend died with a life full of living.

Feb 22, 2007 I had a friend die... even to this day it seems sureal and it is still a date burnt into my head.   Ryan is even better a friend than him and i have no doubt that today is a date that will burn hotter than 9/11.

Oct. 19th, 2011.  Today's date, and a date i'll never be able to wash away.


The world is spinning, but i can't feel it.