I hope to loose myself for good. I hope to find it in the end… not in me, in you. – Switchfoot.
I want to find myself in God. I also want to find myself in my soon to be husband. I know what it means to throw myself away. What I want is no longer myself or my own life… I want a life, with my husband, in God. I want an identity so deeply imbedded in him that there is nothing else to define me.
I’ve also never truly understood what it meant to be completely devoted to a man. Even when I was engaged before, when I had given everything I knew or could manage, I didn’t understood how to give even what I don’t know and even what I can’t live without. The respect that has seeded the love I now know, it is deeper than any lust or emotional love or, more important than that, it is deeper than any godless love.