I had a some what real crush on a boy we are going to name Lewis. Now Lewis goes to church with me and hangs out with some pretty cool kids. He loves Jesus, but hangs out like a normal person.
the other day, his neighbors told him i liked him and now i've seen a side of him that i was hoping might not exist. I'm kind of burned out on the crush.
It is possible that he'll turn out to be the super cool kid i was hoping he is, but i'm guessing that "this kiss" (check out the song) isn't so romantic at all. I have a strange feeling that it is just a physical gesture or enjoyment rather than a "hey i like you too". I have a feeling that the crush was on a kid that i thought had great standards but now that i know he doesn't have great standards i'm not sure if i still have a crush on him..... I hope i'm just over reading things or reading things wrong because i want him to be the morable person i thought he was.
It's funny how one simple thing can decide if you like someone or not.....
The guy i want to like is a Jesus lover who isn't up tight or traditional. I want him to be outgoing and laidback. I also want him to have the same morals.... morals meaning beliefs. I don't have anything against drinking or smoking or cussing, but only in moderation. I think premarital sex is wrong (no judgment, i don't care if anyone else does it) and i think its on the same level as any other "sexual imorality": aka. fooling around. I also think we should be nice to everyone and stand up for those who can't stand up for themselves.... that's basicly the summary of my morals in a nutshell.... along with what i want in a guy.
Maybe he'll surprise me, but right now it's not looking to bright..... my kiss doesn't seem to be anything special to him :(
..... guess i'll go see what my girl friends are doing, all i really want are my friends anyway.
speaking of friends: holiday world. yay.