I can't decide who i dislike more, My ex or his ex. It's a burning hatred that is far more violent than my personality can contain.
I got a bat today for my own home invasion protection since my little house stands on the edge of a questionable neighborhood, but now i am starting to wonder if it is so smart for me to have the possession of a weapon that could be used for more than just protection.
I know i need to let it go. The problem is that "he" wont let me. I am trying to move on so that i can stop hating because, like i said, hatred is not something my personality sits comfortably with. Now i have to watch "her" call him baby names and adorn him with her attraction to him as he chases me around and whispers sweet NOTHINGS through texts.
What a whore. Who does that? him and her.... i wouldn't pity them if they both suffered god's wrath.
and a song that describes my bitterness perfectly:
What makes this an actual problem is that she is coming back to Carbondale and i can guarantee you that this will not be pretty.... he is trying to "take care of me" and he is trying to , well i don't know what is trying to do for her. I do know that when he takes her to one of his shows and invites me, i kill a bitch. Not really, because i don't keep my gun at my house.... but i guarantee I'll end up fighting.
I'm just not sure what he thinks he is getting at. When we were together they talked.... she told me i wasn't the "secret lover". Excuse me? duh. I'm the one with a wedding ring on my finger bitch. Now that my ring is just a pretty reminder of the vengeance in my heart, I'm not sure who will play his mistress is in the picture, but i can sure promise you that she'll always just be his whore.
well if it did burn, it wont anymore.
and if she ever does end up with him it will never change what she is: