This is what i've become. I wake up. I check my email. No messages. I watch veronica mars and i watch some more veronica mars. I check fb. I check his fb (creepy, i know) sometimes i get up for lunch. Sometimes i have an interview. I come home and watch some more veronica mars. check his fb again, hope for a sign. Watch some more veronica mars. try to sleep but really i just stare at the cieling and pray. Tomorrow, i'll wake up again. I wish i could sleep forever but i know that that's not really an option right now.
Just like April, just like every other girl, It's hard to quit hopping. to stop looking for a sign of hope is just as hard. But it's over and i have to accept that. I have to accept it fast because the depression is coming fast if i don't do something.